I was dating this girl for only a few weeks. I had suspicions she was cheating on me as soon as we started but she always she always said not to worry. She had this friend group with 2 other girls and 2 guys. After we would hang out she would then hang out with them. She would also never talk to me when they were together. i thought it was so strange. i told her im not comfortable with it. One day she came to my place to stay over. We had sex then went to bed but i stayed up for a while on my phone. Her phone then kept buzzing so i went to see why and it was one of the guys in the group saying “I love u, im so excited to see u tomorrow. Its been only 2 days and need to fuck you again.” I was stunned and so upset. I woke her up and started freaking out what i just read. I kicked her out and we broke up. She hit me up a couple times soon after to hang out but i never did. i was tempted but never gave in.

Fast forward a year later I started dating my current GF. She’s so incredible as a person and also so hot. We’ve been dating now for over 2 years. Our sex life is good but i like more kinky stuff. at some point 6 months ago i started getting into being more submissive in bed and then eventually being into being a cuck. i was confused why because i was so upset about my ex cheating on me and have been worried about being cheated on since but now i find it so hot. The idea of my GF getting fucked by some other guy who’s bigger and stronger than me makes me so horny. Getting humiliated and degraded by her turns me on. i

I didn’t tell my GF about this for a long time until a couple months ago. She knew i liked when she took control but not being cucked. We were having sex and i told her during it that I masturbate to the thought of her having sex with another guy. She was shocked and asked if i was being serious and I told her i was completely serious. she was surprised because she knows I’ve been cheated on before. I asked if she’s comfortable talking to me about getting fucked by another man. She said she was and ever since then when we have sex she does that for me. I finish so much faster when she starts doing it. She’s became so good at it and i always ask her to describe the guy thats fucking her. Its always a Big black guy and who’s way taller, fit and has a much bigger dick than me. Her kink is actually being dominated so she always talks about how the guy is taking full control of her, something i can’t do. It makes me finish so quick.

I have never asked her if she ever would actually fuck another guy while i watch. I have asked her if she would ever have a threesome. Either with MFM or FMF. She said nah she doesn’t think she would enjoy that. I have asked her about previous experiences and it always made me jealous but horny.

I’m not going to lie as much as i want to be a cuck, i am worried that it would ruin the relationship or she would leave me for that guy. I have no idew how or if i should ask her.